Countdown to Goals

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Entering a new year, and a new phase

These past few months have been emotionally difficult but as I look forward to the beginning of a new year, I can't help but feel a little but excited about entering a new phase in my life.  For the first time (ever!) I am living on my own. I'm slowly getting settled into my new place and it's beginning to feel like home. I'm sure there will be bumps along the road, as there always are, but I hope that the "bumps" in my life lead me to continue to grow & change for the better!

Some of the "new" things in my life include:
New apartment on 11/10/12
New furniture on 12/1/12
New haircut on 12/10/12 (completing a goal!)
New goals completed (found my Grandma's short stories that I've been looking for/wondering about for the past 10 years!  I'm just waiting for my dad to scan/send them to me!)

Also, in a few months, I will hopefully (!) know about a new work position.  I'm currently in the midst of applying for postdoctoral programs (actually, I'm currently procrastinating by updating my blog!). Once I finish my dissertation and internship, I will officially be done with my degree (yipee!)  But, I am hoping to complete one additional year of training (beginning in Sept '13) which will allow me to build skills in the specialty area I want to focus on (PTSD with Veterans) and will also allow me to complete the supervised clinical hours that I need to have before I can apply for licensure.  This educational journey has certainly been a long and difficult road, and there are still a few hurdles ahead of me, but the work I am doing is greatly rewarding and I wouldn't change anything about what I am doing!


Tuesday, November 13, 2012

101 in 1001: 1 Year Update


Well, I missed it by a couple of days, but it has officially been one year since I began 101 goals in 1001 days.  Sadly, I have not completed any new goals since I last updated the list in August, but I thought I would start another post to record my progress at the 1-year mark!   Life has certainly given me some unexpected bumps in the road these past few months, but I'm working towards building the next chapter in my life.  With this in mind, it was helpful and encouraging to re-read my list tonight, and to remember some of the tasks I set out to accomplish and the things that are important to me.  Based on the changes in my life right now, I might decide to alter a few of the items on my list, but it's also possible that these goals are reflective of who I am and who I want to be, for now... I'm taking it one day, and one step, at a time!


Update:  12 Month Progress (last updated 12/16/12)

Start Date: November 5, 2011

Completion Date: August 2, 2014
Goals Completed thus far: 42

Goals about 101 Goals
  • Participate in 101 in 1001
  • (done 11/10/11) Generate a list of 101 Goals
  • (done 11/5/11) Create a blog to track & share progress
  • Inspire someone else to participate in 101 in 1001 (and follow their progress)
  • (done 11/11/11) Overcome my perfectionistic tendency by posting this list without obsessing; while giving myself permission to make changes if/as needed

Academic/Career Goals
  • (done!! 11/21/11) Complete Internship Applications
  • (done 3/20/12) Complete testing comps
  • Complete dissertation
  • Finish internship
  • Walk at graduation
  • Obtain postdoc position
  • Submit for a publication
  • (done 5/20/12) Say “no” to an extra commitment
  • (done 12/18/11) Purchase new suit/shoes for interviews
  • (done 8/27/12) Beautify my work space
  • (done 8/30/12) Identify and implement a clinical ritual/tradition

Entertainment Goals
  • Identify a list of top/classic movies and watch 20 (in process: 4 of 20)
  • Identify a list of top/classic books and read 10 (in process: 5 of 10)
  • Re-read a kids book series (Little House on the Prairie?)
  • See a Cirque du Soleil show in Las Vegas
  • Watch the Twilight movies (in process: 3 of 5)
  • Sing at Karaoke night
  • Create 2 CDs for long drives/stuck in traffic
  • Choose 10 countries and read an author from each one
  • (done 11/28/11) Listen to a book on tape

Health/Fitness Goals
  • Go for a 20 minute walk 3x/week for 1 month
  • Attend 10 classes at the Brazilian Dance Studio near my house
  • (done 3/15/12) Return to Belly dance classes
  • (done 2/4/12) Eliminate all caffeine use (to evaluate link with headaches)
  • (done 8/2/12) 6 months without caffeine
  • Participate in three 5K walks (in process: 2 of 3)
  • (done 7/7/12) Ride my bike to the beach (~10 miles round trip)
  • (done 7/29/12) Ride my bike to a neighboring beach (~20 miles round trip)
  • (done 11/26/11) Go for a hike
  • Kayak in the Ocean
  • Donate blood to the Red Cross
  • (done 6/11/12) Update my glasses prescription
  • (done 6/11/12) Obtain prescription sunglasses

Financial Goals
  • Pay $100/month towards student loans for 6 months
  • (done 8/18/12) Close my account at the Big Name bank and transfer to local/credit union
  • Establish & contribute to college fund for my niece

Things to make/create
  • Make a quilt for myself
  • Finish costume for S.R.
  • (done 6/25/12) Finish Cross-stitch project
  • Label Italy photo album
  • Print photos from Germany trip
  • Create/label Germany photo album
  • Personal update to blog 1x/month for a year (in process)
  • Outline major events in my life/autobiography
  • Journal life stories for 5 minutes/day for 1 month
  • Draft a short story for one event in autobiography
  • Find and make 20 new recipes
  • Open a cookbook to a random page and make the recipe
  • Make a loaf of homemade bread
  • (learn how and) Make a batch of homemade jam
  • (learn how and) Make a homemade pie
  • Build a gingerbread house
  • Make baked goods and share with classmates/colleagues

Relationship/Social Goals
  • (done 5/20/12) Go on a date night with J.S. 3x/month for 6 months
  • (done 12/16/11) Have a coffee/lunch date with friends 1x/week for 1 month
  • Mail Christmas cards to friends/family
  • Call/talk to A.E. 1x/month for 6 months
  • (done 8/2/12) Attend a family reunion
  • Send holiday/birthday gifts to my niece (in process)
  • (done 3/31/12) Go on a weekend getaway with J.S.
  • Send a handwritten note/letter to 5 friends
  • (done- 2011-2012 practicum) Develop a new friendship
  • Host a birthday party for myself
  • (done 1/29/12) Cook/host a dinner for friends

Self-Care Goals
  • Get a manicure/pedicure
  • (done 12/4/11) Get a professional massage
  • (done 5/7/12) Buy flowers for myself
  • (done 12/10/12) Get a haircut every 3 months for 1 year 
  • Practice mindfulness for 5 minutes/day for 2 weeks
  • Practice mindfulness for 5 minutes/day for 1 month
  • Make a list of 50 inspiring quotes
  • Color an entire coloring book (in process)
  • (done 12/4/11) Lounge in a hot tub
  • Buy and use an entire bottle of bubble bath (in process)

Travel/Tourism Goals
  • (done 3/31/12) Visit somewhere new in California
  • Visit somewhere new in the US
  • Visit somewhere new outside of the US
  • See the California Redwoods
  • (done 4/27/12) Visit Big Bear Lake
  • (done 4/1/12) Stare at a waterfall
  • (done 11/27/11) Watch the sunrise & sunset on a single day
  • Go to 5 museums I’ve never been to before 
  • Visit 5 national/state parks (3 of 5; Grand Canyon, Yosemite, Joshua Tree)

Personal/Other Goals
  • (done 7/13/12) Sort through, purge, and donate old clothes
  • Sort through, purge, and organize box of papers
  • (done 7/10/12) Organize file cabinet/hanging folders
  • Read Grandma’s book
  • (done 12/10/12) Find & compile Grandma’s short stories
  • (done 6/16/12) Update my professional wardrobe
  • (done 8/17/12) Try a new type of ethnic food
  • (done 11/10/11) Help a random stranger
  • Volunteer 20 hours of service (in process: 5 of 20)
  • Generate list of 50 places I want to visit in my lifetime
  • Go 1 week without logging into facebook
  • (done 11/29/11) Go 1 week without playing online/computer/video games
  • (done 8/2/12) Go 24 hours unplugged (no phone, TV, computer, etc)

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Gratitude

In an effort to maintain a positive outlook in the midst of a stressful time, I'm trying to be mindful of the things that I am grateful for.

In no particular order, here is today's list:

Good friends who will share a laugh/cry at any time or place
Feeling the warmth of the California sun in the afternoon
Gazing at the ocean while feeling said warmth of the sun
Good music that soothes my soul
       (current favorite: The Wailin' Jennys, specifically "Storm Comin'"



Sunday, October 14, 2012

9 weeks done!

This week marked the end of 9 weeks at internship, it's hard to believe how quickly the time is going by!  At this point I'm settled into my routine, and already starting to think about the changes in my schedule that will come at the end of the first quarter. I'm hoping it won't be too difficult of an adjustment, as I'm only going to be changing 2 of the groups that I do... it should also open up some time in my schedule, and I'm hoping to add some more things at that point!  When we first started, all of the staff told us that it would be hard to adjust to everything in the first quarter, and reminded us not to over-fill our schedules as we could always add more later (but once added, we can't really take things away!)  I'm glad that I've finally learned this lesson in life (not over-extending myself) and I think I did really well building my schedule, giving myself space to get acclimated, and now I will be soon looking to see what activities I might want to add to round out my experiences this year.

The craziest part is that although we've just finished 9 weeks out of our year-long placement, it's already time to start thinking about applications for the next year!  This is the last year of requirements for my degree, and some people choose to be hired immediately after. But, in California you have to have an additional year (1500 hours) of supervised clinical work after you obtain your degree, before you can be licensed. Although some people get hired somewhere immediately after graduating, they have to either arrange for (or pay for!) this supervision. The other option is to complete an additional training year in a Postdoctoral Fellowship (Postdoc).  This guarantees that you will complete all 1500 hours (if you work privately, it can take a lot longer than 1 year to complete the required hours), but the downside is that it tends to pay less than a "real" job, ha!  Within the VA system, it is quite common/expected to complete a postdoc position before getting hired (although this is not always the case, at least in other states.... I have a friend who was offered a job at the end of her internship!). In addition to completing hours, it also means one more year of training (sometimes even 2!), supervision, and more focused learning in an area of specialty.  So, although I'm just starting to feel settled into internship, it's time to look at sites, decide where I want to apply, prepare applications, and ask for letters of reference!! ("Hi, I know you've only known me for 9 weeks, but wanna say a bunch of great things about me?" Haha!)

I was looking over my last post (about being too tired to go to the advanced dance class) and realized I have an update there too!  I have been going to the beginner class, which is fun (but much less strenuous than I'm used to), but I also have a medical explanation for why I've been so tired all the time.  I'd wondered for a while, but at my last physical my blood work showed that my TSH levels were high, it took a few weeks to get the results, then a few more weeks to get another appointment, but by the time they did a re-test (including all of the thyroid levels) my TSH was even higher, and the blood work showed that I have an autoimmune disorder that results in hypothyroidism.  I've been taking medication for about a month now, and have a follow up appointment this week (I"m assuming they will check the blood levels again, to see if the medication needs adjusted).  It's a bummer to realize that I will need to take thyroid medication for the rest of my life, but it is nice to know that there is a "reason" for my low energy. (I've noticed some changes with taking the medication, including not being as tired at night/not falling asleep as early, as well as decreased appetite/snacking-- guess my metabolism is starting to get back on track!)

In other news, my progress towards 101 in 1001 has been quite slowed recently due to some stressors in my personal life (I'm not going to expand on that here, but I would appreciate any prayers/positive thoughts sent my way!) Although, I have the 5K for pancreatic cancer research coming up in a couple of weeks, and I completed 5 hours of community service for an event with school.  That was a really rewarding experience-- there is a homeless shelter that Pepperdine is affiliated with (this is where I worked for my first year of clinical experience) and they have a facility in the foothills north of LA for women & kids (called Hope Gardens). Pepperdine organized a back-to-school event for the kids, where donations were gathered and each child was presented with a backpack of new school supplies. We also had a morning of activities including crafts, games, water balloon toss, and a bouncy-house that had a water slide in it--- that was so cool! I'd never seen that before and the kids loved it!  Anyhow, a friend/classmate of mine went with me, and there were probably 15-20 volunteers from Pepperdine (the psychology & education program) including staff, students, and alumni.  I had a really great time, and I wished I"d participated before! (Assuming I stay in the area for postdoc year) I hope to participate with them again next year!!

Saturday, September 22, 2012

6 weeks- done!

Well, this week marked the end of week 6 at my internship.... only 1800 hours remaining until I'm done! :)  Things have been going well at internship, but it is a huge adjustment and I'm not quite feeling settled in, but it's getting much better!  I now have a full caseload (all of my individual clients are scheduled) so on top of group therapy, training seminars, and meetings my week is pretty full!  The staff are reminding us that we aren't *supposed* to stay late (and most nights a week at least someone is there late) so they are encouraging us to manage things within the scheduled work week. I'm hoping that the next week or two will fall into a more predictable routine, and result in coming in early/staying late on less days.  But, compared to some other internship sites (that expect up to 60 hr work weeks!) I know I really have nothing to complain/worry about!

This week also marked the return (once again) to dance classes. Because of my early schedule (and high requirements for sleep if I want to function!) I decided that I can't take my regular class, because it starts/finishes too late and would interfere with my schedule. But, another dance friend has been out for an injury, and so we both joined the beginning class.  When I walked in the door, the teacher (also a friend at this point) looked at me and said "what are YOU doing here" (I'd been in the advanced class for years).  The class is less challenging/ less intense exercise- but I figure it never hurts to practice the basics, and something has to be better than nothing!

Friday, August 24, 2012

80 hours down, 2000 to go!

this week marked the end of my second week of internship!  (I started this blog entry last week, stating the "end of my first week" but didn't get farther than writing that sentence; I guess that shows how busy/tired I've been!)  That means that I *only* have 2000 working hours until I am officially a doctor!

the first week consisted mostly of training/orientation at the main VA hospital  (there are 3 different sites that are all part of the same system; I'm placed at the smallest of the three, which is an outpatient facility located in downtown).  I'd heard that the first week was the worst; simply because it is long/boring/tedious with all kinds of training for new employees that doesn't necessarily apply to us... well, the upside of expecting it to be painfully boring was that it wasn't as bad as I'd expected! :)

Friday of the first week marked our first day on site... it was nerve-wracking and exciting, but we got to tour the facility, see our offices, and find out about our supervisors/rotation schedule for the year.  I was very happy to find out that I was given the first rotation in the PTSD clinic (something that was very important to me, but beyond my control!) and I was also assigned to a supervisor who focuses on PTSD work-- this will be great in a month or two when I'm starting the application process (yes, once again!) for post-doctoral positions.  The remainder of Friday, and all of this week, consisted of back-to-back meetings with just about every person/department in the VA (wow- can we say information overload?!?!)  I'm not really sure how much I retained, but it was nice to meet the various people whom we might interact with this year.  the week also gave us a chance to begin to get to know the mental health staff & supervisors, all of whom I'll be working with this year in various capacities.  Although we are assigned a primary supervisor (the PTSD clinician I mentioned above) we also run groups and participate in other tasks with nearly all of the supervisors... this is great for networking & increasing our knowledge in a wide range of areas; but it is pretty overwhelming trying to get to know all of the different personalities, supervision styles, and preferences for how we do things like recording notes in the patient charts. it's going to be a while before I feel settled, but at least I'm feeling really excited!

The other big task of the week was for the other interns and I to create our group schedule for the year. Basically we were given a list of all of the group treatments that all of the supervisors offer (many of which have different requirements), and we had to determine who would do what group when.  This might not sound too complicated, but trust me- it was a stressful, overwhelming & confusing task!!  BUT, we managed to have it sorted out by 3pm this afternoon (our deadline was today, although the supervisors seemed surprised when we said we were finished!) and the best part was that all 4 of us are relatively happy with our choices and we worked very cooperatively together!  Everyone was careful to hear the other people's preferences & priorities, so that we made sure everyone's needs were met (apparently, that is somewhat unusual-- I think this process has brought out the worst in interns in the past, it's just asking for competition, insecurity, and interpersonal conflict--- but we had none of that!)

I'm very grateful for my intern cohort; the 4 of us have a nice mix of similarities & differences, and we bonded during the (somewhat painful) orientation process...not to mention that 2 of the interns have an amazing sense of humor, feed off each other, and have *very* contagious laughter!!  We've already participated in 3 after work happy-hour outings, and we plan on having a weekly Friday lunch to decompress--- I have a feeling this is going to be a great year!

The year is going to be very busy- our schedules are feeling packed already, and we still have a lot of things to add!  I'm hoping that once I get into a routine I"ll feel better, but I'm expecting that it will take at least a month before I start to feel settled.  All of the supervisors are warm & welcoming, and the environment feels like a place that I want to work (which is awesome, as they tend to hire former interns!!)

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Unplugged

Last week I had the pleasure of attending a family reunion.  Despite a long travel-day with some potentially vacation-altering roadblocks (on a layover in Chicago, I noticed that my flight had been booked to Rochester Minnesota, rather than Rochester NY!!) I made it to Rochester NY where I spent the night, and picked up my father the following morning to start the 2.5 hour drive to the campground.

Weds, Thurs, and Friday were spend visiting with family members, and playing with my adorable little cousins (including 3 under the age of one, whom I hadn't met before).  I really enjoyed the time with everyone, as well as the time to "unplug" from my busy life, and just enjoy being in nature.  This trip also allowed me to cross off 2 more items from my goals list: attending a family reunion, and being "unplugged" for 24 hrs (no phone, no computer, etc).  I actually was unplugged for closer to 3 days, which suited me just fine! :)

Some highlights of the trip included: taking a walk & watching the sunrise in solitude the first morning; playing with all of my little cousins, but specifically holding A. and watching her giggling smile; walking around with E. at the logging festival; staying up waaay too late talking at evening campfires;   and successfully making dinner (green salad & fruit salad) with C. despite the sad/limited assortment of kitchen utensils (yes, I chopped a pineapple with a butter knife)!  Oh, and breaking my caffeine "fast" with s'mores at the campfire!  I nearly forgot, but that means I get to cross off yet another goal!

As much as I loved visiting with everyone, my sleep did suffer (I was waking up between 6-7am, eastern time every morning!) and I am glad to back in my own place, with my own bed!  I have this week to recover & get back into some sort of a routine, as next week marks the beginning of my internship!

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Biking Success!

Well, I've managed to keep up my plan with being more active this summer (although, that's not hard to do considering my activity level was near-zero)! Today we made our 3rd bike trip of the summer and managed to go an extra 5 miles (in addition to the extra 4 miles we went last time) for a grand total of ~18 miles!  The ride was a lovely way to spend the morning (it took us just under 2 hrs) but my legs certainly are feeling it now!  However, I feel quite pleased because I thought it would be a lot harder to accomplish my "ride to a neighboring beach" goal...!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Hiking & Biking

Well, after a few weeks of decompressing after school finished, I've finally gotten out and about to enjoy my summer!  On Tuesday afternoon, we took an semi-spontaneous trip out to Joshua Tree National Park to go for a hike.  The temps were projected to be in the 90s, so we were prepared to wake very early (~4:30am) to be able to drive the rest of the way and start our hike by 6am.  We decided to go into the southern entrance, as there was an interesting sounding trail head: Lost Palms Oasis.  I wasn't sure if we would be able to make the 8 mile round trip hike (I was very concerned about the heat) but, we had our sunscreen, sun hats, and camelbacks ready to go.

We got a bit of a late start, but left the hotel around 5:45am, and we weren't out of the parking lot before the rain began!!!   Although California rainstorms are nothing compared to some other parks of the country, we definitely drove through some downpours on the way there!  The sky had cleared by the time we reached the park (and we were early enough, we saw a coyote crossing the road with his/her breakfast)  It was about 6:30 when we reached the trail head-- of course, thinking of the sun/heat, we hadn't thought to bring rain gear (it was the 4th of July, in California, in the desert!!!) But, we decided to risk the rain and start the trail.  

As we left the parking lot and started the trail, we saw the first (and only) other person on our early morning hike.  He quickly passed us (after pausing to take a picture of a jack rabbit that was standing on its hind legs-- those animals are huge!!) and we didn't see him again until we reached the oasis that was the goal/endpoint of the trail.  Around the first mile-marker, the rain started up again. Our t-shirts and cargo pants were completely soaked before long, and the rain continued for at least a mile or two.  Although it became a bit uncomfortable to be hiking in soaked clothes, it was quite nice that the rain & clouds kept the weather cool.  The temps were quite comfortable, and it didn't get warm/muggy until the last mile or two on our way back to the car.

All in all the hike was wonderful.  It was about 4 miles out to the oasis, and the hardest part of the trail was the last bit scrambling down the rocks/boulders to get into the valley floor of the oasis.  I was definitely feeling tired at that point (and it was tough climbing back out!) but, the view was well worth it!  We never really dried out, as the rain had lifted in/around the oasis, it started up again not long after we began the walk back.   The rain meant that we didn't get as many pictures as we normally would, but the shrubs/cactus looked amazing!  All of the plants had bright green shoots and many were blooming/flowering as a result of the rainstorm.  Although I loved the view, the best part was realizing that I could tackle an 8 mile hike!  The estimated time for the moderate/strenuous hike was 4-6hrs, and we were back to the car in 4.5 hours--- not bad for 2 non-athletic (and at least one out-of-shape) people!

To continue my summer goal of being more active, we decided to go for a bike ride today.  After digging our bikes our of the storage closet, pumping the tires (and a quick trip to the bike repair shop!) we managed to ride down the bike path to the beach; about 10 miles round trip.  We got a later start than we'd intended, but the views were beautiful as all of the sailboats were returning to the marina (sorry, no pictures for this one).  My hope is to continue hiking & biking (at least 1x/week) during the summer--- my body certainly can use the increased activity after sitting inside a classroom for the past 3 years!

Monday, June 25, 2012

Crafting success!

another one of the (many) items on my 101 in 1001 list was completed tonight!  A few years back (I think about 6, although that's an embarrassingly long time ago) I decided to make a set of 3, 13"x16" cross-stitch designs...  The first took me about one year to finish, the second took about two years, and the third....well, it followed the pattern as well!  (but to my credit, I also finished a bunch of grad school classes in that time as well!)

Anyhow, I happily finished the last stitches a few moments ago, and now I just need to get it into the frame and on the wall with the other 2 pictures from the set.  Of course, this does pose a significant problem--- I have absolutely zero available wall space remaining- and I no longer have an active crafting project for when I watch TV.  I guess that means either A: we move into a larger apartment or B: it's time to tackle another goal item and start making a quilt! :)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Update: 101 Goals in 1001 Days

Update:  6 Month Progress

Start Date: November 5, 2011
Completion Date: August 2, 2014
Goals Completed thus far: 40

(last updated 8/30/12)

Goals about 101 Goals
  • Participate in 101 in 1001
  • (done 11/10/11) Generate a list of 101 Goals
  • (done 11/5/11) Create a blog to track & share progress
  • Inspire someone else to participate in 101 in 1001 (and follow their progress)
  • (done 11/11/11) Overcome my perfectionistic tendency by posting this list without obsessing; while giving myself permission to make changes if/as needed
Academic/Career Goals
  • (done!! 11/21/11) Complete Internship Applications
  • (done 3/20/12) Complete testing comps
  • Complete dissertation
  • Finish internship
  • Walk at graduation
  • Obtain postdoc position
  • Submit for a publication
  • (done 5/20/12) Say “no” to an extra commitment
  • (done 12/18/11) Purchase new suit/shoes for interviews
  • (done 8/27/12) Beautify my work space
  • (done 8/30/12) Identify and implement a clinical ritual/tradition
Entertainment Goals
  • Identify a list of top/classic movies and watch 20 (in process: 4 of 20)
  • Identify a list of top/classic books and read 10 (in process: 5 of 10)
  • Re-read a kids book series (Little House on the Prairie?)
  • See a Cirque du Soleil show in Las Vegas
  • Watch the Twilight movies (in process: 3 of 5)
  • Sing at Karaoke night
  • Create 2 CDs for long drives/stuck in traffic
  • Choose 10 countries and read an author from each one
  • (done 11/28/11) Listen to a book on tape
Health/Fitness Goals
  • Go for a 20 minute walk 3x/week for 1 month
  • Attend 10 classes at the Brazilian Dance Studio near my house
  • (done 3/15/12) Return to Belly dance classes
  • (done 2/4/12) Eliminate all caffeine use (to evaluate link with headaches)
  • (done 8/2/12) 6 months without caffeine
  • Participate in three 5K walks (in process: 1 of 3)
  • (done 7/7/12) Ride my bike to the beach (~10 miles round trip)
  • (done 7/29/12) Ride my bike to a neighboring beach (~20 miles round trip)
  • (done 11/26/11) Go for a hike
  • Kayak in the Ocean
  • Donate blood to the Red Cross
  • (done 6/11/12) Update my glasses prescription
  • (done 6/11/12) Obtain prescription sunglasses
Financial Goals
  • Pay $100/month towards student loans for 6 months
  • (done 8/18/12) Close my account at the Big Name bank and transfer to local/credit union
  • Establish & contribute to college fund for my niece
Things to make/create
  • Make a quilt for myself
  • Finish costume for S.R.
  • (done 6/25/12) Finish Cross-stitch project
  • Label Italy photo album
  • Print photos from Germany trip
  • Create/label Germany photo album
  • Personal update to blog 1x/month for a year (in process)
  • Outline major events in my life/autobiography
  • Journal life stories for 5 minutes/day for 1 month
  • Draft a short story for one event in autobiography
  • Find and make 20 new recipes
  • Open a cookbook to a random page and make the recipe
  • Make a loaf of homemade bread
  • (learn how and) Make a batch of homemade jam
  • (learn how and) Make a homemade pie
  • Build a gingerbread house
  • Make baked goods and share with classmates/colleagues
Relationship/Social Goals
  • (done 5/20/12) Go on a date night with J.S. 3x/month for 6 months
  • (done 12/16/11) Have a coffee/lunch date with friends 1x/week for 1 month
  • Mail Christmas cards to friends/family
  • Call/talk to A.E. 1x/month for 6 months
  • (done 8/2/12) Attend a family reunion
  • Send holiday/birthday gifts to my niece (in process)
  • (done 3/31/12) Go on a weekend getaway with J.S.
  • Send a handwritten note/letter to 5 friends
  • (done- 2011-2012 practicum) Develop a new friendship
  • Host a birthday party for myself
  • (done 1/29/12) Cook/host a dinner for friends
Self-Care Goals
  • Get a manicure/pedicure
  • (done 12/4/11) Get a professional massage
  • (done 5/7/12) Buy flowers for myself
  • Get a haircut every 3 months for 1 year (in process 11/12, 2/11, 5/20, 8/7)
  • Practice mindfulness for 5 minutes/day for 2 weeks
  • Practice mindfulness for 5 minutes/day for 1 month
  • Make a list of 50 inspiring quotes
  • Color an entire coloring book (in process)
  • (done 12/4/11) Lounge in a hot tub
  • Buy and use an entire bottle of bubble bath (in process)

Travel/Tourism Goals
  • (done 3/31/12) Visit somewhere new in California
  • Visit somewhere new in the US
  • Visit somewhere new outside of the US
  • See the California Redwoods
  • (done 4/27/12) Visit Big Bear Lake
  • (done 4/1/12) Stare at a waterfall
  • (done 11/27/11) Watch the sunrise & sunset on a single day
  • Go to 5 museums I’ve never been to before 
  • Visit 5 national/state parks (3 of 5; Grand Canyon, Yosemite, Joshua Tree)
Personal/Other Goals
  • (done 7/13/12) Sort through, purge, and donate old clothes
  • Sort through, purge, and organize box of papers
  • (done 7/10/12) Organize file cabinet/hanging folders
  • Read Grandma’s book
  • Find & compile Grandma’s short stories
  • (done 6/16/12) Update my professional wardrobe
  • (done 8/17/12) Try a new type of ethnic food
  • (done 11/10/11) Help a random stranger
  • Volunteer 20 hours of service
  • Generate list of 50 places I want to visit in my lifetime
  • Go 1 week without logging into facebook
  • (done 11/29/11) Go 1 week without playing online/computer/video games
  • (done 8/2/12) Go 24 hours unplugged (no phone, TV, computer, etc)
Following goal #5, I've given myself permission to adapt & adjust some of my goals as needed. For full disclosure (and my own tracking purposes!) the following changes we made in this update: goals about eliminating sugar/dairy were changed to caffeine (to evaluate link with headaches); goal about donating to charity was changed to establishing a college fund for my niece

Monday, May 7, 2012

Nature, Dancing & Flowers!

Well,  I was doing good with my at-least-once-a-month updates, but somehow April slipped past me!  I've been meaning to pull together pictures and update about my recent adventures in nature (Yosemite National Park & Big Bear Lake) but since that hasn't happened yet, I figured I'd better write something!

Since my last post was about dancing, I guess I will start with an update about that..... our class holds 8 week sessions, and the last class of every session is a small recital where we can invite family/friends to watch. This is always a lot of fun because it's an excuse to dress up and watch each practice what we've learned. This session we were learning new veil moves, and I danced a solo for the first time in nearly 2 years! The gals and I are also preparing for our annual performance at a large festival held in the area... which should be a lot of fun!

This week also marks the 6-month point for my 101 goals in 1001 days .... I was doing really well at the beginning, but things have started to slow down recently. however, as I was picking up some groceries this afternoon I saw a beautiful bouquet of yellow & purple flowers (I'd been keeping my eyes out for some sunflowers) and decided to bring these home with me for a little bit of "sunshine" in our apartment!  One of these days (hopefully soon) I'll have to re-post my list and see how I'm doing... I've been reading some books from my list, and I visited another National Park (and bought myself flowers) so there are at least 3 things to update!


Thursday, March 15, 2012

Dancing Again!

After a very long hiatus (almost 2 yrs, yikes!) I returned to my dance class tonight! I am very grateful to be back and happy to see all of my dance friends on a weekly basis again! I was surprisingly nervous about returning; not only am I out of shape & out of practice, they are all 21 months "ahead" of me! Of course, that was just my silly mind talking, and it was wonderful to be back! I was surprised to discover that my body/ muscle memory retained more than I expected, and also eager to work to regain what I've lost in coordination & confidence

I'm also very grateful that the theme of this session is veil work (as opposed to drum solo!) which will *hopefully* give me a chance to get back up to pace with my stamina! I have some concerns about keeping up with attending class. Thursdays are very long days for me (with an early Friday morning) so I know that getting myself to class will be a challenge, but, I just have to remind myself that I always feel better afterwards!

Friday, March 9, 2012

Waiting is over

Although i believe my only "followers" have seen my updates via facebook, I realized that I never updated things on my blog.

I last posted on 2/14, and my grandfather died 4 days later (the 18th, which also was the day before my birthday). In all honestly, the hardest day for me was the 13th, when I received news that my grandfather was no longer being treated for his pneumonia, and that he was only receiving palliative/comfort care. Although I wasn't able to be there, I am grateful for having the opportunity to see him in January and also grateful that my mom, her sisters, and my cousins were all able to be together in support of one another.

The other piece of the update is a bit (quite a bit!) more positive and uplifting, on Feb 24th I received news that I had indeed been "matched" for internship, and that I was placed at my #1 choice! :) This was (and continues to be) very exciting news! It feels satisfying for all of my hard work to have "paid off", and do be "liked" by (at least one of) the site(s) that I really liked. The odd part of this excitement, is that it didn't feel very "exciting" when I first found out (although, the excitement is growing) Rather it was relief: relief that I don't have to move, relief that J. and I don't have to live apart for a year, relief that I can keep all of my same insurance/doctors/etc. It's funny to me how many tiny, little things kept popping into my head as match day grew near (trust me, the list was extensive, and highly amusing! everything from sleeping in my bed to having my furniture, to avoiding rust damage on my car in snowy locations). Amusing as this is, it makes sense to me. The part I wasn't expecting was the sense of disappointment that I will never know how the other sites (primarily my #2, 3, & 4) ranked me, and wondering about the things I won't learn by not being at those sites. Overall though, I am very (!) pleased about the match results, and I'm looking forward to starting in August.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Waiting game

One of my classmates/friends/co-practicum students came up to me this morning and asked how I was doing with the countdown-- she said that every morning she wakes up and thinks "Only 10 days left" (at least, that's today's count....) I know the match has been on my mind a lot lately, but I can honestly say it was completely out of my awareness when she asked me.... I guess being worried about other things has a way of doing that!

In short, I'm not sure - but my grandfather may be dying. He has been doing poorly (cognitively & physically) for a while and was continuing to live in an apt (with a day nurse and my aunt staying with him at nighttime). I visited briefly when I was there for my interviews (week #2) and it was clear that grandpa's mind was declining, and I worried about the toll it was taking on him (and my aunt who was caring for him). A few weeks back (i've really lost track of time, but I think it was after I got home from my last interview), I learned that he had been moved to a nursing home. The last 2 weeks have been a series of scattered messages from family: grandpa moved to a nursing home, grandpa went to the hospital because the nursing home isn't taking care of his medical needs, etc. This past Friday, the news was that he was doing better & his medical needs were being resolved at the hospital; on Sunday night; however, I got a call saying "grandpa is unresponsive". To be honest, I'm not exactly sure what this means; I just know that my mother is very worried (in flight as we speak, or maybe she's landed by now...) and that grandpa may, or may not, recover... the hardest part for me (right now at least) is not knowing: not knowing if there is something I could/should do, not knowing how long it will be before I get word (if he does decline), not knowing....so many things.

But, at least all of the family worries are bringing the stress of Match day into perspective. Of course I'm eager/nervous/excited to find out if/where I place for internship, but all of this family stuff reminds me of the greater importance in life: being there for one another, living a life I am proud of, continuing to grow as a person, and giving back to others where & how I am able. Perhaps some of this contemplation is coming due to my upcoming birthday, perhaps because I've had more time "in my head" while J. is traveling for work, or perhaps this is just my normal about of self-reflection, that is "louder" due to all of the life happening around me.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Feeling nervous

So... I posted my rank order today. Actually, I did it last week (just to test it out and see if it was easy/complicated; but I knew that I wanted to make changes) but posted the "real" version today. I spent a few hours last night reviewing my notes and agonizing over the details, and then posted my revised rank order. I technically have until midnight (eastern time) on Wednesday to make any changes, but I think this one will stick.

I feel really good about the order of my top 4, but it's the bottom 4 that have been giving me headaches.... I think it comes down to the fact that I really want one of my top 4, and will be a bit disappointed with any of the bottom 4 (although, it will obviously be good to match to any site on my list). All in all, I"m just ready to know what to expect for next year, and I'm already tired of waiting! Guess my lesson to work on is patience!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Week 4 and Finished!!

Well, I'm in the airport waiting to begin the final day of flying/ final day of this internship-interview marathon! :) I have a long day ahead of me, but the weather is great (46 and sunny at BDL in Connecticut) and I'm really looking forward to sleeping in my own bed, and finally putting my suitcase back away into the closet! If all goes according to schedule, I should be home (and truly finished!) in about 10 hours! :)

This week held my final interview, as well as a lovely visit with Julian's aunt, uncle and cousins (who live about 30-45 minutes away from where I was interviewing). The interview, was, um, very interesting... and although I felt fine about my portion of the interview (and I got the sense they were impressed by me) I can't say that the feeling was mutual. There were a few REALLY funny things (as in odd, unusual and bizarre!) that I really want to share, but, there is a big part of me that worries that it wouldn't be wise to share said stories on the internet (at least not before Match Day!). Before I even arrived at the site, I had the feeling that the training director was an interesting man (His email invitation to interview referenced Jersey Shore- for "fashion tips" as well as included a turkey cartoon advising us to "Eat Lobstah" for thanksgiving) basically, I walked in knowing that he was going to be a bit different than the other training directors I'd encountered (and my interview experience confirmed this). In some ways, I wish I'd been able to secretly videotape the day, it felt that strange.... as I talked to Julian's uncle that evening, he wondered if this was a test to see how we'd respond to an awkward/unusual situation (Personally, I think the director was being true to himself, and, well, that gave me a lot of information about how the year would be if I matched at that location!)

The bottom line: I am DONE (!) with interviews :) Yipee!! Now I just have to finalize my decisions about my rank order (I submit the sites in order of my preference- this has to be submitted no later than Feb 8th) and the sites do the same thing (submit their order of preference of applicants) and then on Feb 24th we find out if we matched, and if so, where we will be living for the next year. The start date for internship year varies a bit by location (early to late summer), but half of the sites I interviewed at start on July 1st, and the other half start in the middle/end of August. Of course, if I don't match (I think my chances of matching are good, but of course there are no guarantees) there is a second round of applications/etc (for any sites that didn't fill their spots) and if that isn't successful/or there weren't sites that matched my training goals, I would most likely be looking at delaying and going through the whole process again next year. But, I'm choosing not to think about that unless/until I need to!

As I think back about this process, the most difficult parts were 1) thinking about and deciding where I wanted to apply: particularly due to my mind spinning in circles about what I want to do in 1, 5, 10 years and how to get to that point, as well as the stress of thinking of moving away on my own for a year 2) getting the applications turned in: the task itself wasn't that awful, but the stress and worry cycle of wondering what sites want, and the "what if I don't match" was awful! 3) traveling around the country certainly took an emotional (and financial!) toll on me... the actual interviews were quite pleasant, and at most of the sites I really enjoyed meeting the staff, hearing more about the programs, and imagining what it would be like to be at that site for a year.... I'm grateful that I've had a lot of cross-country travel experience, and I know myself well enough to know that I get stressed out about traveling/preparations- but in some ways I think this month may have desensitized me to that (out of necessity!) either way, as much as I love traveling, I know that I really enjoy being home the most!!! (even though there are dishes, groceries, and chores awaiting me!)

I'm not going to post specifics about my rank preferences online, but if anyone is interested feel free to send me a private message to inquire.... but, for family/friends who are having trouble keeping track of the cities (in order of my interviews): Manhattan, Los Angeles, Cleveland, Dayton, Long Island, Buffalo, Salt Lake City, and Hartford.... Oh, and even though I didn't interview at the site where I am currently working for my practicum training, I submitted an application and am allowed to rank them- so that makes 9 sites total. Among those, there were three sites that I really liked (walked away feeling happy & excited about the idea of working there!) and one other site that also was exciting and had great training (but I'm hesitant due to some non-training-related factors). Of the remaining sites, an addition three places had good training, but I didn't have that same spark of excitement (or had some location/ minor concerns) after meeting the staff/seeing the facility/ hearing about the training... all in all, there are 3 or 4 sites that I'd be very happy to match with, and another 3 or 4 sites that I would be content with... so I'm feeling pretty good about that!!

I'm glad to have survived this month of traveling, and I"m happy to those who have laughed at my stories (and airport woes) along the way! Thanks for "traveling" with me!